Did my dick got smaller?

Isn't it the scariest idea ever, who could occur to a man?

I am deeply convinced that the structure of our society is only based on domination. Christianity made us believe that the one being slapped could be stronger offering the second chick, but nowadays, in the great age of "über-capitalism", the stronger one is the one who slaps! Everything is about power and its most primitive expression is the penetration. This is a hard time for the ladies!
Yes, I deeply believe that equality between the genders is a sign of civilisation and countries where women are treated as inferior, are not socially developed as the one who do.
A surrendering city, who let the enemy penetrate in its wall, accepts domination; should someone being physically penetrated automatically socially dominated? No! You can control a part of my body but I control your brain and the way I like to be apparently dominated, because it gives me pleasure and at the end I decide when it starts and when it finishes. Unfortunately, it is not that simple in most of the world and even where it should be, the absolutism of porn culture from the tenderest ages makes people believe that the bigger is your dick and the more confident you should be!

And here I am, in the sauna of my exclusive gym, sweating in front of this young naked hunk exposing a huge “confidence”! He is playing being unreachable and ignoring my presence because he wants to be admired and seduced. This used to be a challenge to me, but I got older! I felt like I would admit my inferiority if I would get into that game! “Do you think you are looking better now than I was looking at your age? Will you look in my age as good as I do now? And if you go on spending so much time on your appearance, will you have any chance to express your own individuality instead of conforming yourself permanently to an average perception of beauty? I fold myself with my towel, hiding some unnecessary kilos and left the Adonis alone.
How old did I become to be so obsessed with age, appearance and youth!
No, I just recognized very late the capital that I had, that I did not take advantage of! I never tried to look good because I was looking good and getting the attention of people I liked. I realise now, when instead of me, shallow young persons get the attention of people I like, that my looks helped me in the past sometimes more than I admitted: “My beautiful thoughts were not as exciting as my beautiful thighs”
Today, in our global world, the cult of a very formatted beauty gives me the impression we went directly from the primitive Stone Age to the Plastic Age (of surgery!). Accepting it would be denying my first ideals of civilised society!
If I lost confidence in winning the battle of the appearance, does it really mean my dick got smaller? I don’t think so, I only justify myself by more intellectual means which do not vanish as fast as the looks!

Anyway, I still will trim my pubic hair a little better next time, it makes me looking bigger!